Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Life's Puzzle

"Life is full of beauty.

Notice it. 

Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. 

Smell the rain, and feel the wind. 

Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams."

While working on a project at work today, I was in need of a quote.  I wanted one that related to the project but one that related to life also, because believe it or not the project and life actually go hand in hand.  I found the quote that is listed above, and I sat in awe.  Looking back on my old life, I noticed too many times where I was wrapped up in the moment, worried only about so called issues and things that mean so little in the grand scheme of things.  Since Wyatt grew his wings, almost six months ago, life has been so very different. 

It is actually hard for me to explain in words how life has changed, how it became something so extremely different.  You see, everything that once was isn't any more.  Getting upset over small things at work, caring so very much for something that means so little, and taking in everything but the important things is all gone from my life.  This has been replaced with becoming upset over the selfishness of people, caring only about my family, and understanding and appreciating the smallest things in life. 

In a previous post, I mentioned a quote that came from a Hallmark movie. 

"You haven't lived until you lost everything."

I sit here looking back over the past 30.5 years of my life and I realize, I haven't noticed the bumble bee, the child or the smiling faces until just recently.  Just within the last six months.  I hadn't lived until I lost it all.  I lost my son, what more can one lose? 

Give it thought.  I would never ask you to consider losing your child, so instead do it this way...

Take away everything, all that you must have, all that you love and care about.  Take away your house, car, big screen television, the spontaneous items you bought on Black Friday, this years styles because last years just won't do, your jewelry and makeup, take away the designer curtains and the high dollar lamps, the bedding and all your clothing.  What do you have left? 

If your answer is nothing, you are wrong.

Let me ask you again, you have no more materialist items, what do you have left? 

After the loss of my son, I didn't care and still don't care about anything else.  I don't care about money, cars, houses, or the gifts under the tree this year.  When Wyatt grew his wings, I realized that I had lost it all, but I also realized I had so much more.  I had love, family, friends, and faith.  If you know me, you know that I don't go to church, but you don't need to go to church to pray to God and to believe.   I have been shown so very much in just a short time and I have been able to start to live life.

Life is nothing more than a puzzle.  You just have to the find the connecting pieces in order to see the bumble bee, the child, and the smiling faces.  The pieces include love, family, friends, and faith.  The materialist piece doesn't fit in life's puzzle, it simply makes the puzzle one that will never be complete. 


Lisette said...

So so true, love this post. It is incredible how much we change when we lose a child. I think for me personally it has been for the better.

BTW, THANK YOU for my card, love it!

Laurie said...

I can't wait to finish my stupid blog - I want to link to all the ones I read. I'll have to highlight this... it says it all. You said it.

I'd given anything to have her here - but there is nothing quite like the feeling of knowing all that she gave me - how it will forever affect every step I take. I am both the saddest I could ever be - yet called to live so differently because of her - a blessing I never wanted, but it is all I have left of her - so I will take it and give her the credit every moment that I am there, with awareness and appreciation. It is astounding what painful clarity this type of loss offers to tearful eyes. Thank you for your post and your beauty and for sharing Wyatt with us! Hugs and care for the days ahead...with-without.

Melissa said...

I find myself much less interested in the materialistic things of life lately too. I know there are good things I can learn from this experience for sure, and that is one of them.