Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Tomorrow For Which I Never Had

Today marks 29 weeks and 1 day gestation for little Nolan James.  Today is a milestone, for 29 weeks and 1 day is the length of time for which I carried Wyatt.  June 4, 2010 marked 29 weeks and 1 day of Wyatt's pregnancy.  That was the same day that the surgery was performed.  The surgery that proved to be unsuccessful.

I started thinking of how today is a special day for Nolan's pregnancy, as it was the last day of Wyatt's pregnancy.  But I found myself not able to look beyond this point.  For tomorrow may be different, but today I just couldn't do it. 

Nolan was quiet today, he didn't move very much.  Was it because he wanted me to remember Wyatt?  Maybe he knew that today was a somber mark.  Whatever it was, his mood mirrored mine or maybe mine mirrored his. 

Tomorrow will bring new feelings, as I haven't ever carried a baby beyond 29 weeks and 1 day.  I never really experienced a full term pregnancy.  I find it ironic that we have an ultrasound, our third, to see Nolan tomorrow.  Tomorrow, the same tomorrow for which I never had with Wyatt.  Maybe it was all meant to unfold this way.  Whatever the reason, tomorrow we will be able to see our second son at 29 weeks and 2 days, and we are excited for this tomorrow!

Life isn't a matter of milestones, but of moments.
~ Rose Kennedy

1 comment:

Lauren said...

Always thinking of you!